Hamilton Introspection

I have always been a huge fan of Broadway musicals. Around two years ago, when I had way too much time on my hands because of the extra-long summer break thanks to the outbreak of Covid-19, I had a period of introspection about my Broadway obsession. 

I realized that a lot of my friends around me did not share the same liking for musical theatre in the heart of New York. Why would they anyway? They were high school students in Pakistan, practically a million miles away from Broadway. 

So I decided to follow the natural course of action after this mini-crisis: I decided to write a feature about how Broadway made me question my identity. After interrogating my immediate friends, I found one friend who shared my love for Broadway. 

In a text conversation, she analyzed for me that our love for it possibly stemmed from a place of internalized colonialism. Her exact words? Bec we wanted 2 b white when we were kids. And now we overcompensate by immersing ourselves deeply into our culture hoping to cover up mistakes of our past.”

However, I did acknowledge that my love for Broadway goes beyond internalized colonialism and also stems from a place of appreciation for art. After becoming self-aware about the internalized colonialism aspects of it all, I felt at ease and self-aware. Besides, there are powerful, subversive pieces of work within Broadway such as Lin Manuel Miranda’s Hamilton, right?

Right?

Possibly wrong.

Also two years ago, I wrote about the significance of having a cast comprising people of color in the musical, Hamilton, retelling the story of American history and Alexander Hamilton in the context of the Black Lives Matter movement. Even though I tried to be impartial in the article, the fact that I knew every single song from the musical at heart was really showing at several different points. 

The creator of the musical cast predominantly people of color in Hamilton because he claimed that the story is the retelling of America then by America now, and he wanted the cast to look like how America looks now.

However, recently, a friend pointed out how Hamilton is slightly strange for casting people of color as slave-owners. I am convinced this statement has triggered a series of introspective questions in my mind again.

Ways of Knowing has taught me to question everything I know especially from standpoints that involve nuances of colonialism and race. This is why I am writing this as a blog post here. This post does not end on a conclusive note but instead ends with a question mark. Perhaps the most difficult thing about instances like this is the lack of an objective, truthful answer. But here’s to learning, growing, and introspection. 

 

Upon digging, here are some links I have found that have been helpful for me in this journey of introspection:

 

https://www.oprahdaily.com/entertainment/tv-movies/a33216431/hamilton-cancelled-lin-manuel-miranda/

 

https://www.vox.com/culture/21305967/hamilton-debate-controversy-historical-accuracy-explained

 

https://thefounder.co.uk/2020/07/16/hamilton-progressive-or-problematic/

 

Women and reproductive health: A case of epistemic injustice

For both Philosophy and Ways of Knowing, I have talked time and time again about the medical negligence towards women and individuals assigned female at birth. I particularly focused on the negligence of womens’ concerns in reproductive healthcare and the invalidation of menstrual issues. I talked about this specifically in the capacity of epistemic injustice, where womens’ concerns about their own bodies are overlooked and dismissed as just being sensitive or dramatic. 

The onset of the Covid-19 pandemic has taught me how this act of epistemic injustice transcends beyond mere microaggressions, into a realm of serious threats to the health and wellbeing of people with uteruses. 

Recently, my friend Laiba Mubashar wrote a blog post underscoring the impact of Covid-19 on menstruation. In this blog, Laiba cites a research article based on a survey carried out by specialists at the Society for Endocrinology annual conference in Edinburgh. 1300 women were surveyed in April 2021 regarding their stress levels, sleep, and menstrual cycles. 56% reported an overall change in their menstrual cycles since the beginning of the pandemic; 64% reported a worsening in premenstrual symptoms. 

In her blog, Laiba makes the conclusion from the cited research article that investigating the long-term effects of the pandemic on female reproductive health is necessary.

Keep in mind, the article Laiba cited was published in April 2021. This was around four months after Covid-19 vaccines started rolling out to the general public. When I personally went to receive my Covid-19 vaccine in March (first dose) and April (second dose), I was barely able to find any official studies or information about the impact of the vaccine on menstrual cycles. All I could really find were posts on Reddit by people saying that their menstrual cycles are impacted. 

I think it is worth mentioning that the people posting about their disrupted menstrual cycles were also heavily questioning themselves and the validity of their own experiences. They thought maybe they were mistaken and it wasn’t the vaccine toying with their cycles. While it is valid to be skeptical before drawing a conclusion about an experience so new and unlike anything before, to see people with uteruses question their own judgment about their own reproductive health is not uncommon.

Only after several women reported disruptions in their menstrual cycles, the National Institutes of Health (NIH) released grants to five institutions to carry out research about the impact of the vaccine on menstruation. John Hopkins’ Gynaecology Department was one of these five institutions and they released their study in September 2021. The problem is, this was after thousands of individuals had already been vaccinated and experienced menstrual disruptions without being aware of it or prepared for it. I strongly believe that this was due to insufficient testing on diverse bodies and lack of consideration for womens’ reproductive health. 

Another friend of mine, Makeisha, has excellently explained this topic in a blog post. She unpacks the article, “Epistemic Injustice and Resistance in the Chiapas Highlands: The Zapatista Case,” by Sergio Gallegos and Carol Quinn and uses it to draw parallels with the global systematic oppression of women in healthcare. 

Why do we see women constantly questioning and invalidating their own pain and symptoms in terms of reproductive health? It is because that is what they have heard other people say about their pain and symptoms. Where I come from, seeing a gynecologist is already a huge taboo. The stigma is even twofold if you are “unmarried” read: sexually inactive. There is a general dominant belief that nothing can go wrong with “unmarried” women, hence they are not checked or tested, especially if the procedure is supposed to be invasive. 

“Unmarried” girls are asked “What will your future husband have to say about this?” when they demand a procedure. More autonomy and control are placed in the hands of a non-existent husband than the individual whose body is in question. I believe this dismissal and invalidation of the concerns of people with uteruses when it comes to reproductive health is an example of epistemic injustice that has not only hurt me and people close to me but has also caused structural risks as seen in the case of the lack of investigation about the impact of Covid-19 vaccines on menstrual cycles.

Similar to my idea about non-existent husbands, Makeisha talks about a ‘hypothetical male partner’. In their blog, they elaborate further on why this epistemic injustice is harmful since it leads to illegal and unsafe abortions as well. They further talk about how medication and procedures are specifically tested on men as healthcare uses an unfair one-size-fits-all-approach. This makes it difficult to diagnose and correctly medicare non-men. 

The culture of not believing women about their own symptoms terrifies me. Last summer, I talked to Ramma Cheema about her experience with endometriosis and how difficult and slow her diagnosis was. Endometriosis refers to a condition where tissue similar to the endometrium grows outside the uterus. After experiencing the issue of doctors disbelieving her, she Googled about her condition, and only after getting married did she convince a doctor to carry out an investigative laparoscopy, the only procedure that provides a conclusive diagnosis for endometriosis. Ramma concluded by sending out a message to young women to listen to their bodies and believe their bodies. 

Social media and skin color

In my blog, Foundation Chronicles: How Capitalism and Eurocentric Beauty Standards Uphold One Another, I talked about how the democratizing power of social media pushes to subvert beauty standards. There is surely a glimmer of hope and some of my favorite content creators from back home have pushed for body positivity and have called colorism out. I will be linking some work by some of my favorite young Pakistani creators doing the wonderful work they do. 

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However, it is not the full picture of how social media truly is. The truth is, the analysis I made did not fully represent the entirety of social media since social media still predominantly pushes Eurocentric beauty standards, creating insecurities within people and upholding the capitalist industry of skin whitening products. 

No matter how much democratizing power social media has, in my part of the world, conventionally attractive individuals with Eurocentric features generally do better on social media. This even applies to people who create comedy or miscellaneous content rather than simply beauty or styling content. 

There also exists a culture of bullying and body shaming on social media and the algorithms of social networking sites are usually not regulated enough to take down bullying comments before they reach and affect the victims.

Speaking of algorithms, perhaps the most scandalous aspect of the Tiktok algorithm that substantiates the point this blog post is trying to make is the possibility that the Tiktok algorithm pushes lighter-skinned, conventionally attractive, able-bodied people above everyone else. 

Artificial Intelligence researcher Marc Faddoul claimed that Tiktok might have a racial bias in the algorithm where it recommended users creators of similar hair color and skin color to the creators the users had just followed. This means that if the majority of the famous creators are white, creators of color receive limited reach and exposure on the app. 

Not only does this prevent creators of color from receiving as many opportunities as white creators, but also increases the visibility of white faces on mobile screens, where young impressionable users could possibly look up to white creators as the beauty standard. All of this has made me question the hope I had about the democratizing power of social media and its subversion of beauty standards because even now, social media perpetuates harmful ideas such as colorism to a large extent.

The dangers of being a journalist from where I stand

“I have unpacked certain misogynistic slurs in my article”, I very nervously stuttered. Fumbling nervously, I sat in a carefully manicured corner of my dorm room last year. The corner was set up specifically for the zoom panel I was on. In this panel, I was discussing an article I had written about misogyny and feminism in Pakistan.

Due to my anxiety related to the pandemic, I would not leave my room much which gave me time to build my work portfolio. As an aspiring journalist, this meant getting some journalistic work published. 

“Sarah, you can say the words you have talked about”, giggled the zoom panel moderator in hopes of providing me with reassurance and comfort. I was uncomfortable and I hated myself for it. I had written and published an ostensibly daring and bold article unpacking the etymology of a slur, talking about cyberharassment, and womens’ marches. Yet, here I was, unable to talk about what I had written because I was genuinely scared for my life. 

Mazen Dana’s words, “Words and images are a public trust and for this reason, I will continue with my work regardless of the hardships and even if it costs me my life” (Bishara, 2012, p. 3), resonated with me as an aspiring journalist even though I do not report in a conflict zone and I mostly just write in my room, but I am a Pakistani woman. 

In a series of surveys aiming to explore how secure Pakistani journalists, particularly women, The Digital Rights Foundation, Pakistan found out that 78% of the survey respondents had experienced online threats or harassment.

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Women journalists in Pakistan experience several threats and instances of sexual harassment simply for doing their job. The emergence of digital journalism has meant that a lot of women journalists have to have an online presence to thrive in the industry. This makes them susceptible to quite a lot of violence. 

For me personally, this got a little overwhelming when an article I wrote about veganism in Pakistan received a lot of backlash. I had not calculated that the topic would receive so much hate and was definitely not mentally prepared to witness it. 

There have been several instances where I have personally talked to women journalists in Pakistan seeking advice. While they say that the threats have been usually empty, sent out by online trolls trying to entertain themselves, and have not really translated into actual violence, the fact that the threats are so normalized is so appalling. 

However, I cherish the advice that the older journalists who I consider my role models have given me. They have taught me to be confident in my convictions while also looking out for my safety by researching what news organizations and editors to work with, how to strategically pitch and structure stories, and how to navigate talking about my work on social media. This is why Mazen and Bishara’s words about solidarity and collaboration are so important to me. Mazen said, “It gives me strength to know that our colleagues around the world are supporting us in the quest for truth against those who seek to stifle it” (p. 2). This is extremely important to me because I know I would not be so confident in this journey if I did not know I was supported by other women who are in very similar positions to me. 

I am so grateful for those women because collectively, we have overcome internalized misogyny and capitalism-bred competitiveness to collectively partake in the production of knowledge and the protection of one another from oppression and harassment.

Foundation Chronicles: How Capitalism and Eurocentric Beauty Standards Uphold One Another

“Ma’am, but these are for black people”, protested a makeup store sales girl to me as I tried on a foundation shade that finally matched my skin. The sales girl looked very serious and concerned. This was the first time I had ventured out to buy makeup for myself. However, this was not the first time I was witnessing a South Asian makeup store sales-girl try to sell lighter makeup to a dark skinned woman. 

Buying face makeup as a dark-skinned Pakistani is a real struggle in a country where grocery store shelves are neatly lined with Fair and Lovely (now changed to Glow and Lovely as if it didn’t cause any damage). 

It is believed that a lighter foundation shade will make one’s skin appear fairer. Why are makeup sales-people taught to push customers to buy lighter foundation shades? Because the notion that fairer complexion is better and insecurities about dark skin are heavily capitalized on.

Susan Albuhawa concedes to this in her piece, Confronting anti-black racism in the Arab world, explaining how anglicizing industries of skin bleaching and hair straightening are so profitable (p. 2). 

She talks about the link between images of power and wealth with Eurocentric features such as light skin, straight hair, and small noses (p. 2). Time and time again, I have seen this message being presented in advertisements for South Asian fairness or skin whitening products. I once saw an ad where a woman with a dark complexion performed underwhelmingly in a job interview. However, after using the specific fairness cream advertised, she became lighter skinned and excelled at her job interview. While this might reflect the harsh reality of institutional colorism, it romanticizes the reality and ridiculously almost justifies colorism, blaming the victims and motivating them to “change”.

Albuhawa further talks about how the image rejects melanin rich skin, coiled hair, and broad or pointy noses. An important aspect of the text is bringing light to the colonialist association of these features with laziness and inferiority. An intersectional dimension exists in colorist discourse where conversations of social class and caste intersect with colorism. Dark skinned individuals are assumed to be poor and lower caste based on the caste system, and hence are stuck in a double bind where they experience microaggressions and marginalization related to class and caste alongside skin color.

This week, my discussion group and I discussed the topic of colorism and beauty standards and I got to hear about experiences that were either similar to mine or were new and unique. We discussed how capitalism and Eurocentric beauty standards feed into each other. This is because capitalism functions on creating the demand and need around products. In this case, it creates a perceived need to conform to Eurocentric beauty standards, capitalizing on the insecurities of people of color, and hence running successful and profitable businesses that contribute to the economy. 

However, perhaps I see a light at the end of this tunnel as the democratizing power of social media pushes to subvert beauty standards everyday. Content creators are doing their best to call out colorist and Eurocentric beauty standards and the people are becoming more likely to reject such problematic standards and boycott the consumption of anglicizing industries. 

 

So what is up with rich men in animal masks?

Spoiler alert: This blog contains spoilers for squid game 

 

My last blog explored a little bit of the Pakistani web series, Churails. Particularly the part where rich men gather in suits and strange animal masks to attend elaborate events where they rated women based on their looks and body parts. Churails is filled with animal analogies, and a couple of years ago, I wrote an article exploring the analogies in depth. 

However, while I was writing my previous blog, I coincidentally was finishing up my Netflix binge of Hwang Dong-hyuk’s Squid Game. This is why the fact that Squid Game also featured an elaborate event where suited, animal-masked men (the VIPS) treated a group of individuals in a very dehumanizing way kind of toyed with my brain. In Squid Game, people who are severely in debt are recruited to play games that resemble childrens’ games, however, they are killed if they lose. In the show, these men gathered and bet money on the players of the game, and watched the game for their entertainment.

The visible similarities between animal-masked men in Squid Game and Churails are beyond appalling. In both series, the people wearing masks are rich men who wear suits underneath. The masks are gold or silver with a geometric pattern, the elaborate pattern and color of the masks is possibly a deliberate attempt to represent wealth in both cases. I still do not know if the animal-masked men trope is a trope seen in other pieces of media. Upon searching, I haven’t been very successful. 

However, the biggest similarity is the fact that in both cases, the masked men animalistically try to dominate another group of people. While in Churails the focus is on gender (it obviously can not be separated from other identities such as class), in Squid Game the focus is predominantly on class. 

While at first glance, this might not seem to directly link to the content from this course, there is definitely a link. The masked men trope (is it really a trope?) helps my understanding of the predatory nature of oppressors. Throughout this course, I have learned about the predatory, exploitative nature of colonialism. This was made very explicit particularly in the McClintock text last week but was also seen in Things Fall Apart and the Fanon texts.

 

Taming and Subservience: The Dehumanization of the Oppressed

Picture elaborate gatherings at an elaborate mansion by the beach. Gatherings where men show up wearing animal masks – their identities hidden, where women dress in cocktail dresses, where wine is served and conversation is made. However, the men sit around watching the women be presented on a platform, rating the women’s body parts on a scale of 1 to 10 and suggesting where improvements could be made. Women are “disciplined” or tamed and given advice on how to become “better” for the men. This happened in Pakistani director, Asim Abbasi’s web series Churails

In Churails, the words used to describe the body parts of the women were not humanistic such as head or arm. Instead, words like “mane” and “rump”, which are typically used for animals’ body parts, were used by the masked men.

Despite how bizarre it seems, to me it is an accurate reflection of how oppressors have felt the need to tame and mould the oppressed to make them convenient and manageable, along with being similar to the oppressor. I believe this dehumanizes the oppressed, almost animalizing them. 

This blog will draw a link between Mahmud and McClintock’s ideas of oppressors wanting to “tame” the oppressed, seeing them as animals, and it will also talk about the gendered aspect and relations of this taming with respect to McClintock’s analysis.

Mahmud (1999), drawing juxtapositions between Europe and the Others says, “Europe’s present becomes all Others’ future” (p. 1221). This was the dehumanizing notion that the colonies were wild and needed to be tamed to resemble Europe. This idea stuck with me because it made me realize that most systems of oppression function in a way where the oppressed are conditioned to think that the oppressor is superior, and is what the oppressed should strive to be like. 

In our previous discussions, my discussion group and I have talked about how this phenomenon can be seen in globalization as well, where peripheral countries are applauded for following in the steps of European and western powers. It is also noteworthy that during colonialism, parts of the culture of the colonized were erased by the colonizer for being too “vulgar”. However, the same colonizers have now moved on to embrace the culture as sexual liberation. An example of this is how blouses were introduced in the subcontinent because sarees without blouses were deemed indecent or uncivilized. However, now the subcontinent is seen as backward in terms of sexual liberation. 

However, there is a slight variation to this pattern. In some instances, it is implied that the oppressed can never be like the oppressor and hence should instead be tamed to be convenient and manageable for the oppressors.

This links us to McClintock’s ideas and parallels between gender and colonialism. McClintock assesses the ways in which the colonized were feminized. The women are depicted as vicious and wild at several different points. In the problematic analogies between colonialism and gender, there also seems to be an inherent need for the man (the colonizer) to tame and take control of the woman (the colonized). For example, it says that the world is feminized and spread out for male exploration (p. 23). This reduces the purpose of feminized entities to being mere subjects of the male gaze and male exploration. 

However, the one aspect of McClintock’s analogy that really speaks to my conviction about the animalization of the women or the oppressed is Figure 1.1. Not only does this figure clearly create a dichotomy between male and female sexuality but also it underscores female sexuality, desire for self-defense, and subservience as vicious and villainous. 

The woman in the foreground is shown as inviting and welcoming towards the man, while the women in the background, guarding the borders are seen to be devouring a man. It reminds me of how animals getting defensive around a predator are labeled as aggressive. The women are demonized for simply guarding the border. It appalls me how self-defense from women is vilified like this but the man being predatory is depicted as normal, natural behavior.

Labels that describe the oppressed as animalistic and uncivilized are used to gaslight the oppressed and to oppress them further. This gaslighting can be colonial or misogynistic. The worst part is, the gaslighting can be a complex intersection of the two, where women in colonies suffer disproportionately more.

 

The Spectrum of Sex

I remember watching a video on Facebook about “a man who gets his period”. The association of menstruation with women is so intense that the concept of menstruating men is very surprising to some people. Such people were in the comment section of the aforementioned video. But for me, the most appalling aspect of the video was that it declared the menstruating man transgender, even though it was likely that the person was intersex because he had ovaries according to an ultrasound shown in the video. The reason why I am referring to this anecdote is to underscore the lack of education about gender and sex in general. People do not know the difference between a transgender person (an individual who does not identify with the gender they were assigned at birth), and an intersex person (an individual whose reproductive and/or sexual anatomy does not align with “male” or “female” anatomy). Despite the fact that I was appalled, reflecting back on my own prior convoluted knowledge and understanding of gender and sex made me realize how much misinformation there is regarding sex, gender, and their distinction in South Asia, much like the rest of the world. I also grew up confused and uninformed about these topics. 

Before I decided that it is unnecessary to label people’s genders and sexuality, my internalized cis-heteronormativity would make me want to put every individual around me into boxes. Dembroff talks about how critics like to accuse people like them of being obsessed with gender, but I think it is cisnormative people who are obsessed with putting people in boxes. I am so grateful I unlearned this and that is why Dembroff’s idea of how the biological world is far messier than XX and XY chromosomes is so important to me (Dembroff, 2018). 

Up until a few years ago, I used to refute the “there are only two genders” argument by suggesting that there are various genders, but two distinct, opposite sexes, which is a phenomenon termed the sex binary. 

I was so wrong. In fact, as early as the 20th century, scholars started to challenge and contest the idea of the sex binary. They argued that all males had female aspects and vice versa (Alok, 2021). Where I come from, educating yourself about sex and gender is discouraged, and you are encouraged to think of the two as synonymous and fixed. This is possibly done to prevent South Asian children from exploring their sexualities and gender identities to prevent “sexual deviance” according to our traditions. There is a commonly held belief that sexuality is a choice, and it is believed that if children are talked to openly about sexuality, they will “turn” queer. This is factually incorrect, ignorant, and harmful.

Reading the Dembroff text helped me realize how cis-heteronormativity not only impacts trans people but also intersex people. One particular resource I have found helpful in comprehending the spectrum of sex is the Instagram account of author and performer, ALOK

One really shocking piece of information I learned from their page is the racist history of the sex binary and how the binary is a colonial invention. According to Alok’s research, in the pre-Enlightenment era, males and females were seen as different forms of the same sex. To be a male or female was cultural, not biological (Alok, 2021). 

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However, after the enlightenment, male scientists started to try and distinguish between what they regarded as the two binary sexes. Consequently, organs that used to have the same name such as ovaries and testicles were linguistically distinguished. Scientists regarded the white people as superior because they had a clear distinction between “males” and females while this didn’t necessarily apply to racial minorities. In 1886, a German sexologist wrote that the higher the development of a race, the stronger the contrast between man and woman. This was echoed by others. This is also because the white people were considered the most “civilized”, which in this case was almost synonymous with “conforming to gender roles” (Alok, 2021). 

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What is so vile about the sex binary is that it allowed men to justify limited women’s rights in the name of nature. This is because they would argue that women are biologically weaker, or more emotional, and less rational. This is why they would be given limited tasks and be expected to conform to strict gender roles. Their intellect was also questioned because they were labeled as “too emotional”. According to Alok, it was a method of naturalizing inequality, which I think is so important to note because of the extent to which the inequality between the sexes is socially constructed rather than innate.